2015-02-24

balsamandash: (s] the only people in the world)
2015-02-24 03:59 am

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I'm just going to listen to this forever now.

Everything sucks and I'm trying to remind my brain that trying to go through verses is how I ended up having a multiple hour breakdown already and it needs to stop. fucking. trying. because it won't stop. But I'm gonna listen to this forever, except possibly to take a break for Agent Carter.
balsamandash: River Tam (Firefly) writing in a book (writing] get it all out)
2015-02-24 11:53 am

I've reclaimed the use of my imagination, for better or for worse, I've yet to know

So in the last twelve hours I:
> Spent a solid two or three hours having a massive meltdown over my writing
> Proceeded to hit the spot of numbness to actually do things
> Cut my verse list in half and then some, altered what remains a lot, and left myself with things I may actually be able to do with
> And now the productivity burst is wearing off, am starting to feel weird and twitchy over having done that, because I am not a real writer, so why do my verses need to be good ones or things I can do actual writing with?


.... My brain, ladies, gentlemen, and neither of the above.

I still kind of want to work on verses but I'm not sure I'm not getting too tired for it, so, we'll see.

(Also, I've marathoned Community to ridiculous extents. We have a week-long Hulu trial. I don't want it to leave me ever.)