if the vampire in my head says it, its the voice of reason

[balsamandash]

Do you ever read fic - especially elaborate AUs or really blantantly unrepentant tropey/fandom favorite plot fic - and just wonder how their brain did not just... Blare a pounding "you're an idiot" alarm at them until they stopped?

This sounds like an insult. It is not. I just want to know how to turn off the alarm. The only thing that seems to work is writing off prompts, but A) I don't have those kinds of prompts and B) I don't want to wait til i do to write a fucking thing.

Judging by my Ao3 I have not written nonprompt fic in two years. In don't think this is quite accurate but what isn't prompt fic, I think is solely written for the knowledge that one specific person wants it, which feels like the same thing.

I don't.know. I really don't. I'm just. Tired. And I.want to feel like I'm writing again. Even though I've written a fuck ton more this month than in ages, I still don't feel like I'm writing, somehow, and it.drives me up a wall.

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[balsamandash]

.... I may be stupid on lack of sleep right now, but I'm not sure I entirely get what you're saying but. So far as things I want to make myself do, I'm... bad at remembering them? Or if not, I'm bad at telling myself I can actually spend the time on writing them.

[silveradept]

Oh, okay. Maybe the equivalent of a prompt hat, where all ideas go and that you do one out of, mixed thoroughly so you don't know which is which?