balsamandash | (no subject)

I am going to cry from sheer frustration.

I want to do things and I want to write and I want to talk about writing and about religion and I want to think clearly about things, and I can't fucking do any of that right now, even if I had the right to, which I don't.

And I kind of just want to sleep to get away from my complete failure to be useful, but I don't deserve that, so.

And it's do this here or do it AT someone, and god knows I've got no business putting my shit on anyone at this point, so here I am. Sorry. Just fucking sorry to everyone. You all don't deserve to deal with me either.

I'm so fucking done with everything after this week, and I have to get it back together in the next day and a half. No fucking idea how I'm doing that, but I don't have a goddamn choice, so.