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[balsamandash]

So here we go: new journal, new name, more-or-less same uncertain being behind the wheel.

I have nothing to say, so let's make this a suitable opening:

Ask me anything, and I will answer as truthfully as I can.

Comments

[rootsofthestories]

besides August, what are the top five names you would use if you felt comfortable using them?

[balsamandash]

1. Lock/Luna -- I put these together because I want them both, I may even end up using them both, but only during specific circumstances, and more or less the same ones. And those aren't when I'm being a big-thing only but it's... all kind of in that neighborhood, so that's a decent way to set it.

2. Meda, because I like how it sounds and feels.

3. November/January/maybe June -- yes I am breaking the rules by regularly doing multiple names, whatever. I like month names, I can't quite put my finger on it but I do.

4. Dawn/Thistle/River -- I give up on most of these being single, because my yes and nos on a lot of names tend to be similar. On this one, it's that they all present that fae-feeling to me and I... am not a fae thing. I am too bogged down and terrified and grounded to be fae. But I think I'd like to be, and names of that sort speak to me.

5. There are days I don't actually think I'd mind being Leigh so much, I just... also don't know if I could ever get properly comfortable with it on a personal level. I am... vaguely considering trying to switch to using it for real life stuff when I move, though. It's much easier to get away with 'use my middle name' for jobs/school than it is 'use this completely unrelated name, for reasons'.

[rootsofthestories]

:D I will keep this in mind <333333

[balsamandash]

More name thoughts, while I have you here:

I really do want to add somethng, I think, it does feel incomplete. I just... don't know what? And none of those suit. They don't... rhythm right? If I'm adding a middle I want it to be three or more syllables, nothing else sounds quite right (maybe two-syllable but it'd have to be particular). And I'm not sure I want anything before August. So. Yeah.

Also, ridiculously enough -- I don't particularly mind being the Morrigan? I don't want to be Morgan anymore all the time ,but that still kind of makes me laugh.

And. Yeah. I don't know. Names. Thoughts. Brains. They're weird.

[rootsofthestories]

You wil at random, be the Morrigan. Also, I understand. I kind of want something, I just have no idea what. Names are fucking hard, man. Vrrr

[balsamandash]

Names are weird and if you want to toss things around while I'm about, I'm up for that, just... let me know.

... I should leave now so I can actually figure out when I'll be about.

[silveradept]

Which universe would you want to inhabit most?

[balsamandash]

Uninteresting but most realistic answer: The one where I have the slimmest chances of dying (or at least my chances of dying don't go particularly up from this world), so... none that are particularly interesting. Because I would probably be dead in most of them, I'm not particularly... anything.

If I could guarantee my survival: Top three would be the Indexing world (Seanan McGuire), the Dolls of New Albion world (Paul Shapera), or one of thebonesofferalletters' carnival worlds.

(Also this probably makes me a masochistic sucker but I would have a hard time saying no if somebody offered to transport me into the Slenderman Mythos. Maybe not permanent, but like, for a day. ... I have a very unhealthy obsession that is going to give me a panic attack one day.)