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balsamandash) wrote2014-10-15 05:45 am
balsamandash) wrote2014-10-15 05:45 am
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why is it I can't tag, write my polybigbang, or write anything else that's been in my head for weeks now
but I can sit down and pound out 2k of Bucky Barnes learning about the spoon theory in about 90 minutes.
and now I sincerely doubt I can write anything else. the fucking hell, brain.
(we're not talking about the rest of it. I am gonna cry and scream and bite things if I keep thinking about the rest of it, so tonight, I get to Not Think About The Rest Of It. and that's not healthy or what I should be doing, but I also? should not flip my shit in front of my mother while I try to convince her I can handle life out on my own.)
(or maybe I should and she can just give up on me completely and then I can do whatever I want.)
but I can sit down and pound out 2k of Bucky Barnes learning about the spoon theory in about 90 minutes.
and now I sincerely doubt I can write anything else. the fucking hell, brain.
(we're not talking about the rest of it. I am gonna cry and scream and bite things if I keep thinking about the rest of it, so tonight, I get to Not Think About The Rest Of It. and that's not healthy or what I should be doing, but I also? should not flip my shit in front of my mother while I try to convince her I can handle life out on my own.)
(or maybe I should and she can just give up on me completely and then I can do whatever I want.)