if your glitter rusts, let me raise you up

[balsamandash]

I called off from work because massive anxiety brainwaves/depression spiral. Now it's 430 and i've spent the last nearly-eight hours on tvtropes, tumblr, and musicals on youtube. I'm not better really, but I'm not worse and work would have made me worse. So I guess it's a win.

to-do, or at least to-try, list for the rest of the night:
- Clear out and respond to comments and email from the past week.
- Start making lists of old character I want to transplant and maybe verses they could fit/roles they could inhabit there.


been done:
- tested wireless headphones. they're great and i love them. downside? i don't have bluetooth on my laptop, apparently. whoops. i can use them with my phone, though.
- found my ball. and my gummy dragon. and the walmart discount card i thought i had lost, whoops.
- happy shows to my brain and futzing around with puzzley phone games to figure out which ones to keep. because, as i am going to try and keep telling myself, it is ok to take recovery time when life has been wall-to-wall anxiety and depression spells, and good tv + zoney games are as close to a happy place as i have access to right now.
- tv + breakfast. well, i am in the middle of breakfast now. but it's happening.
- switched houses, brought theater clothes, though i may steal my brother's shirt, because all my good clothes lean femme and i'm really not in that mood right now.
- memes posted
- moooost comments replied to, if not all. still need to get to email.