i'm building a body where our design has failed

I am:
> August, but occasionally seen answering to older/other names
> 27; genderqueer (they/them or it/its); generally queer (asexual and panromantic)
> Living in Florida; on EST and an ever-rotating sleep schedule
> Poly, kinky, and in a long-term relationship
> A second-generation Witch doing some long-term religious soul searching
> Depressed, anxious, autistic, possibly OCD, likely ADHD, generally suffering from massive executive dysfunction; dealing with chronic pain and other physical issues; fairly vocal about all of the above
> Making a go of self-employment (Tarot + freelance editing)
> A writer, an occasional beta, a highly inactive filker, learning to be a podficcer and a vidder, tentatively learning to draw/do digital art
> A massively multifannish thing
> Awful at commenting, slightly less awful at updating, usually reading
> Always open for being friended

I have writing/creativity, health, and spirituality filters if any of those interest you (and a work one that I am slightly more picky about who I put onto it).

AO3: apatternedfever
Original Writing Notes: temperedwithfable
Tumblr: builttobalance
Twitter: balsamandash
Email: darkofthestory@gmail.com

( Transformative Works Policy )

As I slowly wriggle things over there, reminder that I am now at fullupwithfire for anybody who missed it the firs ttime. <3

If anybody is still giving this a go, I finally got around to using my beta code and making the thing, so feel free to come follow. I am gonna try and remember who's on there and hunt people down later, but we'll see how my memory works.

(Name is subject to change and I will update link if it does. On the other hand if I feel comfortable with it in a few days, it may be what I switch over to with DW in like a week, we'll see. If not, I'm gonna try and find something else.)

Now to try and do the Tarot thing for a bit.

I've been sort of not doing anything for a while now, and while there's reasons for that, it's beginning to eat at me. I may try and put up a post for prompts at some point, but for now, have a Tarot post, since it's been a while. Fair warning: My responses may be slow -- I will try and get to anything posted by the end of next weekend at latest, to give you an idea how slow -- so you may not want to ask about anything super time-sensitive.

So: Comment and receive a two-card reading. Why two cards? Because honestly, interpreting based on some kind of rough spread is easier on me than interpreting one standalone card. If you really have your heart set on a single card, though, I can do one-cards too, just let me know. I can choose the deck or you can; I can do a specific option you'd like for the spread (see below) or figure out what's best myself; I can go general or you can pick a focus/question. I am happy to PM you if you'd like to receive your reading privately instead of publicly; let me know, because the default will be public. (You can also PM me if you'd rather not ask or reveal details publicly.)

All readings are free this time around, and I am not offering options for extra cards or paid readings right now. (Though if you really want to tip, you can go through my partner's paypal into our moving fund. Also, feel free to signal boost if you'd like.) Also, some background, if you're new or unaware of it: I have sixteen years of experience with the Tarot, and I've read frequently for people over the internet, both professionally and for fun, especially in the last five years or so.

( Decks )

( Two-Card Spreads )

Well, I get to go to the doctors with my grandmother today. That's gonna be... something. Things have not been terrible -- I really need someone to kick me into high gear about finding a job but god, the busses here are hard to figure out and that's screwing me up -- but today is not my favorite day.

Other than that I got nothing. I have been doing some editing, bits of Overwatch when I can, and I started Magnus Archives, which I love. So. I could be doing a lot more and I'm occasionally uncomfortable aware of it, but it could be worse.

All our stuff is packed and in the pods to go ahead to TN for us. We clean today and tomorrow, my mother gets here at some point tonight, and we leave Florida on Saturday night.


...I am somehow both unbelievably nervous, and still in the state where it hasn't actually sunk in that we're moving at all.

I do not really have the brain for posting, but I am still alive and okay, and I will try and talk more later.

And things are gonna get busy soon, so that may or may not work, but we'll see.

the sky's always falling somewhere (sometimes it's just your turn) (4107 words) by apatternedfever
Fandom: Agent Carter (TV)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Major Character Death
Relationships: Michael Carter & Peggy Carter
Characters: Peggy Carter
Additional Tags: Psychic Wolves, Grief/Mourning, Losing a sibling, Canonical Character Death, Pre-Canon
Summary:

Bonding young is unusual. Women with wolves are unusual. Human siblings bonded to litter-mates are unusual. And a person with two wolves is unheard of.

Peggy just keeps finding new ways to surprise people.

I got a thing posted! I am proud of me, even if it's nowhere near the amount of story I had in mind.

Meme time again I guess? Stolen from a couple of people, because why not.

The problem with LJ/DW: we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away. Then post this in your journal and find out what people don't know about you.

Yeah, I'm still behind. *facepalms* I'm working on it? Anyway.

Day 13: In your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private.

I've been meaning to do this for myself, but it's really hard, not to come up with goals but to keep them reasonable. I end up wanting to cram every tiny thing I'd want to do in the next year onto the list, and... I don't know, maybe if my circumstances and mental health could stay in an ideal place, that'd actually work, but they don't, and it just screws me, because it feels so impossible to succeed that there's no point in starting.

So, let me try to make this without going overboard.

( Goals? )