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Jan. 30th, 2015 08:41 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
balsamandashThing one: My computer has returned to me, fixed and working, huzzah.
Thing two: Tomorrow I transfer to the other house (and have an extra night off a week for at least the next two, this is probably bad for everything money-wise but is also a giant relief in other ways), Sunday my parents go off to Disney for a vacation. My brother and I are going to be watching the house and the dog (and me watching him) til they come back next Sunday, with the younger one at my grandmothers. Either this is going to be really good for me mentally (my brother is quiet and keeps to himself and we get along really well lately) or really, really bad (I still feel isolated and lonely and at least with my mother/Q there, I get forced into some kind of generally-not-awful interaction at some point). We'll see.
Thing three: Last night was just... bad. In every way. Door alarms going off, almost forgetting how to use words, finding out two women I really admire and enjoy the company of are very bad off, just... bad. But I'm more capable of pretending at stability than yesterday, so... yeah.
Thing four: I am considering starting to keep track of mental/physical health on a daily basis, I just... don't know if I'm going to do it. If I say I feel dumb doing it, how ridiculous does that sound?
Thing five: I am going to shoot for writing during my days off this coming week, so. We'll see how this goes.
Thing two: Tomorrow I transfer to the other house (and have an extra night off a week for at least the next two, this is probably bad for everything money-wise but is also a giant relief in other ways), Sunday my parents go off to Disney for a vacation. My brother and I are going to be watching the house and the dog (and me watching him) til they come back next Sunday, with the younger one at my grandmothers. Either this is going to be really good for me mentally (my brother is quiet and keeps to himself and we get along really well lately) or really, really bad (I still feel isolated and lonely and at least with my mother/Q there, I get forced into some kind of generally-not-awful interaction at some point). We'll see.
Thing three: Last night was just... bad. In every way. Door alarms going off, almost forgetting how to use words, finding out two women I really admire and enjoy the company of are very bad off, just... bad. But I'm more capable of pretending at stability than yesterday, so... yeah.
Thing four: I am considering starting to keep track of mental/physical health on a daily basis, I just... don't know if I'm going to do it. If I say I feel dumb doing it, how ridiculous does that sound?
Thing five: I am going to shoot for writing during my days off this coming week, so. We'll see how this goes.
