<3333 I am really bad at thinking it's not but. I'm trying.
I will poke at them, then. And it's fine; I get paid tomorrow, so I'll see where my finances stand. (That or I will just... ignore this desire and spend it on paid accounts and takeout. This is a possibility. I don't entirely know what I'm getting one for anyway, so it's hard to figure out where to go for it/what I'm doing.)
<333 I will poke, but I am in RPs and failing miserably at them, so probably not? (For the game anyway; if you want to do a private thing I am not adverse to it, just have no idea what to offer/how much I'll be around and up for it.) I don't even think it's that I miss the RP so much as I.... God, I don't even fucking know, I just know I reread a lot of old logs in the past couple of days and even though I was an even worse writer years ago, they still made me miss something so badly I want to cry. I'm not even sure what about it I want back, I just do. Maybe feeling like I'm actually doing things, because even if I still felt clumsy and like I was forcing my writing onto people who'd rather I went away, I still felt like I was doing more. Maybe actually liking my ideas, because as awful as they were back then, I think I second-guessed myself a lot less than I do now.
I'm rambling now, ugh. Sorry, most of this is just me being ridiculous anyway. <3
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Date: 2015-08-12 04:54 pm (UTC)I will poke at them, then. And it's fine; I get paid tomorrow, so I'll see where my finances stand. (That or I will just... ignore this desire and spend it on paid accounts and takeout. This is a possibility. I don't entirely know what I'm getting one for anyway, so it's hard to figure out where to go for it/what I'm doing.)
<333 I will poke, but I am in RPs and failing miserably at them, so probably not? (For the game anyway; if you want to do a private thing I am not adverse to it, just have no idea what to offer/how much I'll be around and up for it.) I don't even think it's that I miss the RP so much as I.... God, I don't even fucking know, I just know I reread a lot of old logs in the past couple of days and even though I was an even worse writer years ago, they still made me miss something so badly I want to cry. I'm not even sure what about it I want back, I just do. Maybe feeling like I'm actually doing things, because even if I still felt clumsy and like I was forcing my writing onto people who'd rather I went away, I still felt like I was doing more. Maybe actually liking my ideas, because as awful as they were back then, I think I second-guessed myself a lot less than I do now.
I'm rambling now, ugh. Sorry, most of this is just me being ridiculous anyway. <3