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Things have been not great mentally this month, and I feel like I've been fucked up physically all month, but I'm not actually sure if I'm imagining that and it's just started in the last week or so. That said, everything is awful and gross.
( menstruation talk )
Anyway, besides that, Thanksgiving was not bad; we did things super lowkey, but there was delicious food, the boys and I played an interesting strategy game, and then my mother and I watched movies. Finally saw La La Land, which was... awkward and not very good but had some nice music even if I didn't really like the lead male's singing voice very much; and Fantastic Beasts, which I surprised myself entirely by loving and immediately diving into fic for. Dammit, Harry Potter, I guess I can never really leave you behind. (And then I had a minor breakdown and rewatched the Royal Tenenbaums, which are not necessarily connected except by a desire to watch things that hurt.)
I'm feeling kind of lonely and disconnected, and all I want to do is play games with people, which is... kind of impossible. Or play games myself, which is slightly doable, but my steam account disconnected and since I mostly played games off Bast's and my brother's accounts, I have lost basically every game I want to play right now. And that's about it; I spent most of today horizontal because of pain, and because pain made it that I didn't fall asleep til almost noon so I slept all day. I have no idea what I'm doing now, so far as sleeping, or going home, or what I'm doing if I'm awake all morning. What I want to do is either play games or watch movies that will probably get under my skin, but I'm trying to resist the second one.
Anyway. That's all I've got. I owe two (I think) people readings who I owe major, major apologies to, and I'm going to try and do that this week once I get home. There are a million other things I need to do, but they really have no bearing on anything. And I don't really have much else worth saying (not that... the rest of this really was or anything).
( menstruation talk )
Anyway, besides that, Thanksgiving was not bad; we did things super lowkey, but there was delicious food, the boys and I played an interesting strategy game, and then my mother and I watched movies. Finally saw La La Land, which was... awkward and not very good but had some nice music even if I didn't really like the lead male's singing voice very much; and Fantastic Beasts, which I surprised myself entirely by loving and immediately diving into fic for. Dammit, Harry Potter, I guess I can never really leave you behind. (And then I had a minor breakdown and rewatched the Royal Tenenbaums, which are not necessarily connected except by a desire to watch things that hurt.)
I'm feeling kind of lonely and disconnected, and all I want to do is play games with people, which is... kind of impossible. Or play games myself, which is slightly doable, but my steam account disconnected and since I mostly played games off Bast's and my brother's accounts, I have lost basically every game I want to play right now. And that's about it; I spent most of today horizontal because of pain, and because pain made it that I didn't fall asleep til almost noon so I slept all day. I have no idea what I'm doing now, so far as sleeping, or going home, or what I'm doing if I'm awake all morning. What I want to do is either play games or watch movies that will probably get under my skin, but I'm trying to resist the second one.
Anyway. That's all I've got. I owe two (I think) people readings who I owe major, major apologies to, and I'm going to try and do that this week once I get home. There are a million other things I need to do, but they really have no bearing on anything. And I don't really have much else worth saying (not that... the rest of this really was or anything).
