in with the old, out with the new

[balsamandash]

I realize I haven't updated in a while, so, I am alive and I am more or less fine. I am failing to get shit done at every turn so I have very little to say day-to-day, unless you want to hear me ramble about being slowly swallowed whole by Overwatch fandom and being annoyed at my own lack of productivity? Because honestly that's all that's really going on right now. That and a bit of RP.

The big brain-draining learn-all-the-shit project I was working on for my mother is done now, though, so I'm kind of hoping that makes it easier to make myself do the other stuff I need to do now that that's not hanging over me -- on the work level, on the apartment level, on the creative level. And speaking of brain-draining work stuff, mother is signed up to vend at PUF this year, which is both excellent - I REALLY wanted to go, and since I'm manning the table with her, I definitely get to - and terrifying - because she's pushing me to do readings at the table too and ahahah I have no confidence about doing professional readings in person whatsoever and I feel sick every time I think about it. We'll see how that goes.

Going to visit family for a least a couple of days in the middle of the month, because my brother and I are going to Brain Candy live, and it's a couple of days before St Pattys, which is a couple of days before grandmother's birthday, so I will probably end up there for at least one if not both. I would complain more, but corned beef and cabbage makes up for a lot of tension.

That's... basically it for the moment?

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[teaotter]

*hugs*

[balsamandash]

*many, many hugs* <3

[alatefeline]

It's pleasant to hear from you! Sorry that brainthings are being not great.

I hope corned beef and cabbage is tasty. I'm certain we'll have some cabbage and potatoes and probably sodybread this year.

[balsamandash]

<333 Brainthings could definitely be worse, though, so.

Yay, food! We just confirmed we're definitely doing holiday/birthday dinner, so I'm excited. :D

[alatefeline]

Yes; 'it could be worse' feels different and harder and yet also probably more reassuring to me when I have DONE the worse and back out again; it's gratifying in a soothing, yet weirdly unsteady, way. Is it that way for you?

[balsamandash]

Honestly, depends on the day, on how I got to 'could be worse', and if I got back there or have been unsteadily teetering on the edge of falling into 'worse' and just not quite reached it yet.

...Emotions. They are complicated, basically. *offers hugs*

[alatefeline]

*hugglomphs you warmly/soothingly/agreed-upon-ly*

[analise010]

It's nice to hear that you're doing well! (I've been worried.) I'm happy that things are on the upswing for you. As someone who has ZERO experience doing professional tarot readings, but a lot of experience in public speaking. The way I handle social anxiety is to take a situation in small does and then plan some SERIOUS self care afterward. Maybe help with the table, do readings for an hour, and then plan and awesome bubble bath or whatever makes you happy as a reward?

[balsamandash]

Yeaaaah, things have been busy, so I kind of disappeared, whoops. I think I have an email from you sitting if I remember correctly, I just haven't actually done more than stare at the notifs that pop up on my phone for like three weeks. I need to clear out inboxes this week.

The festival is a campout, so bubble baths and solitary time in general is kind of scarce, heh, but yeah, taking it in smaller doses and trying to keep a couple of hours between that and any other big-energy events might be helpful. I'm thinking if I limit the decks to ones I'm super comfortable with and keep the at-table readings to three cards or less that'll probably help some, too.

[analise010]

I am such a n00b. I literally thought, "Bring more than 1 deck? Do more than 3 cards? WHAT ELSE IS THERE???" XD

JK, I just started getting into higher-level spreads and it is LIT. The 10 of Swords and I are old pals now. She loves coming through when I pick 5+ cards.

[balsamandash]

I feel like one day I should take a picture of my Box O' Decks for you. Technically it is two people's worth of decks, but still. XD

Ooooh, that is interesting. And yay for getting into longer spreads! Any interesting ones you've been prodding at?

[analise010]

I've been trying out The Cross, The Horseshoe, The Decision, and the High Preistess, as seen here: http://tarotsmith.com/spreads/

I saw someone in Instagram selling High Priestess readings, thought they looked cool, and said to myself, "GIRL. YOU CAN DO THAT TOO!" And here we are. I'm still trying to find friends who are willing to be guinea pigs for me.

[balsamandash]

Oooh, those are neat! I had not actually run into the High Priestess one at any point, it's very interesting. (I do love basically every variant of the Horseshoe I have ever seen, though. Something about it lays things out really well to me.)

Good luck finding people? :D (If you need a guinea pig and are interested it doing it online instead of in person, I am always up to being tested on?)