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( I can't shut up and I can't just sleep. depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and basically running the gamut of down. )

she could fight back the hundred of voices she heard

Things I did tonight, trying to balance out brainfail:

> Caught up on about three months of I Wrote This For You and texts from blogs

> Started contemplating how to actually use my writing-stuff community and possible fic journals/if I even want one

> Rewrote and posted on DW my transformative works policy

> Said fuck it and bought a paid account (it was about as much as I have on me physically so it doesn't even alter my money plans for the next two weeks)

> Added people I've been meaning to add for a while for various reasons

> Replied to some comments, though I really need to go back to the love meme post from the snowflake challenege

> Watched about half of Scrubs S8 (which is not what I planned to watch if I got a night alone but I only really have the brain for sitcoms)

> Cleared multiple goals in Temple Run one-handed (fuck it, I'm couning the tiny victories)

I am still not okay or close to it but I'm not spiraling so hard I can't shut up anymore, and there's a kind of victory.