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[balsamandash]

Right. I definitely managed to make myself cry just by trying to write.

It's been 5 months. If it gets to be 6 I get to just give up and stop without it hurting right?

Now I have to sleep and I can't for the life of me convince myself I've done enough to deserve it.

Fuck everything, I should just stop trying.

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[shipwreck_light]

I'm sorry, m'dear. I really didn't mean to coax you into something that made you cry. ;_; I want you to be happy!

[balsamandash]

Oh gosh, no apologies, it's not your fault at all. I really wanted to; it starts get under my skin badly when it's been too long since I wrote. I just can't seem to make it work anymore.

<333

[shipwreck_light]

*ALL OF THE HUGS*

Me, I can only write my best if I'm pissed off at the world, although I know that isn't healthy. Let me know if there's anything I can do besides hugs? I will do it because I want you to be happy and accomplished!

[balsamandash]

*hugs forever*

Man, I have no idea how you manage that, but I can never seem to hold on to pissed off at anything but my coworkers. It all toppels into anxiety and/or upset. *shrug* I will, but I don't really think there's anything that can be done. I just need to try and pull my brain together enough for words somehow.

[silveradept]

Seconded, this - if we can help, we want to help. If it's just hugs, then hugs.

[balsamandash]

I would happily take hugs. Hugs are always good.

Everything else is... very hard to pin down (I am painfully bad at figuring out things anyone can do to help, even if it's just things I can do) but I will keep it in mind if anything comes. Thank you. <33333