balsamandash: Jane Foster (Thor), backlit and staring into the sky (Default)
I am:
> August, but occasionally seen answering to older/other names
> 26; genderqueer (they/them or it/its); generally queer (asexual and panromantic)
> Living in Florida; on EST and an ever-rotating sleep schedule
> Poly, kinky, and in a long-term relationship
> A second-generation Witch doing some long-term religious soul searching
> Depressed, anxious, autistic, possibly OCD, generally suffering from massive executive dysfunction; dealing with chronic pain and other physical issues; fairly vocal about all of the above
> Making a go of self-employment (Tarot + freelance editing)
> A writer, an occasional beta, a highly inactive filker, learning to be a podficcer and a vidder, tentatively learning to draw/do digital art
> A massively multifannish thing
> Awful at commenting, slightly less awful at updating, usually reading
> Always open for being friended

AO3: [archiveofourown.org profile] apatternedfever
Original Writing Notes: [community profile] temperedwithfable
Tumblr: [tumblr.com profile] builttobalance
Twitter: [twitter.com profile] balsamandash
Email: darkofthestory@gmail.com

Transformative Works Policy )
balsamandash: (s] hope in the air)
Eternally open prompt post of doooooom! Spam away. Lyrics, quotes, scenarios, pictures, anything at all. Fannish, original, up for anything. My only request is gifs/vids being linked instead of embedded so my computer doesn't cry.
balsamandash: (* that's what's happening)
A year-long meme, started by [personal profile] novel_machinist and taken up by some other awesome people:

The goal isn't to write daily, it's to fill a request instead, when we have the time. There's no set length, the only things that we'll set are what we do and the types of Requests we want. The ONLY rule is that if someone fills your request you leave a comment to them. If you want in, make a Cabal of Creators Post on your journal with a link to it for all to see. Let's use the tag #CabalCreators2017 for easy finding.

I'm dividing my categories into two sections; "old faithful" and "new shiny". You might notice that a lot of them fall under the second header. There's a lot of creative things I'm trying to get into the habit of or learn this year, so while you are more than welcome to request something that's new for me, 1) simpler requests are appreciated, since I'll be learning my way around a lot of them; and 2) the quality will probably be shakier than in the first section.

Old Faithful
Fanfiction (fandoms)
Original Fiction (existing verse)
Original Fiction (general prompt)
Fanmix/Playlist
Tarot (1-4 cards)
Icons

New Shinies
Poetry
Meta
Essays
Filk
Drawings/Doodles
Graphics
Vids
Podfic
Audio recordings
Video recordings

Notes. )

Requests. )

Filled requests. )
balsamandash: (s] time is fluid here)
Variation stolen from people who stole it from people who... you get the idea.

I've seen a lot of folks doing a January Meme. I'm shamelessly stealing the idea and adjusting. I'm asking for one- to three-word prompts. I'll do whatever first comes to mind with those words. It may be a graphic, it may be a poem or story, or even something about my life.

Dates. )

Memes!

Jan. 18th, 2017 02:59 pm
balsamandash: (tbd] telling the story?)
I will attempting an actual update sometime in the next couple of days, especially because I mean to go rifle belatedly through friending memes, but for now, I am stealing memes.

Which fictional setting would you put me in, and what sort of role would I play there?

Or alternately:

Comment with a fanfic trope (and a character/pairing for it, if you want) and I will tell you:
• How likely I am to write it
• A few lines of a theoretical fic

(Fandom list, if you need it)
balsamandash: (mcu] if you're asking i can't say no)
I have a OneTab list of 61 fics I want to podfic, have acquired movies for a vid I want to make, and have the desire to go poke at the learn-to-draw site again.

I still am four things behind on the January Meme and I think four on Snowflake; I really, really need to work; and that's ignoring the part where cleaning and boxes should be done right now; but all I want to do is poke at new forms of creativity. It is a problem.

Less of a problem: The ever-amazing Bast got me a new Tarot deck as a late-arriving Christmas gift and I think I am going to take a poke at it today. It is so pretty, and so bright and, I don't know, clean compared to most of my decks, I am looking forward to breaking into it and hearing what it has to say. :)

Would anyone like a one-card draw? Not doing a whole formal write-up or asking for promotions, but I wouldn't mind getting a handle on it with some draws.
balsamandash: (book] reformed vampire)
(I am going to dance back and do day 7 today at some point, possibly in conjunction with the January meme, since the next prompt I have up I want to do fic for. But here goes.)

Day 8
In your own space, make a list of at least 3 things that you like about yourself. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.


I am far from the first person to say this, but I kind of hate this question. My self-esteem issues are epic and all-consuming and that's without getting into the part where my sense of self is kind of screwed up. But I am trying to get all the days done, so here goes nothing, I guess.

Iiiii stared at this for about ninety minutes and I still kind of copped out on the last one. )
balsamandash: (misc] to track me down)
Day Five: Time Stands Still (from [personal profile] silveradept)
(Prompt list.)

the feeling of being in motion again
Despite the Abundance, 866 words, five times time stopped for Nathan
Content notes: Non-graphic blood and violence; passing mentions of suicidal feelings; hinted at d/s relationship elements; one scene, while it's not terribly obvious if you don't know the verse and the characters, refers to a recovered addict getting tricked into using drugs.

This is another verse people who follow [personal profile] thebonesofferalletters' writing are more likely to be familiar with, especially if you follow rainbowfic. In a nutshell: Nathan is a contract killer, Timothy is an editor, they end up roommates, and then fall into a (poorly negotiated, but as healthy as it can be for that) sort-of-d/s relationship. It's maybe not the healthiest thing in the world, but it works for them, considering they're both pretty bad off in their own ways before they find each other.
Also posted at [community profile] rainbowfic.

I don't really wanna know what's good for me; God's dead, I said 'baby that's alright with me' )
balsamandash: (mcu] if i'm good will you let me come in)
Day 06
In your own space, create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive, something you've wanted but were afraid to ask for - a fannish wish-list of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your wish-list if you feel comfortable doing so. Maybe someone will grant a wish. Check out other people's posts. Maybe you will grant a wish. If any wishes are granted, we'd love it if you link them to this post.


Just a random hodgepodge of requests (betas, fic recs, graphics, worldbuilding, youtube recs) )
balsamandash: (ele] the cavalry with tea and sympathy)
Day Four: Nostalgia (from [personal profile] bethany_lauren)
(Prompt list.)

no place to call home anymore
This City's Got Grace (original); Bobby; 526 words
Content notes: Very roundabout mentions of the aftermath of torture, caregiver burnout (is I guess how I'm putting it), general unhappiness

So you're more likely to know this verse and this trio if you follow [personal profile] thebonesofferalletters's writing than mine, since I haven't really written them much, but in a nutshell: This City's Got Grace (or just Cityverse) is a giant urban fantasy kitchen sink universe of Bast's that they let me play in. Bobby is the angel of Brooklyn; his partners, Shaun and Hel, are also angels, who got kidnapped by these labs doing screwed-up experiments on various supernatural things and came back fucked up. The three of them deal with life and trying to get the two of them back to something at least sort of decent, in general; this is Bobby having a bad day of his own.'
Also posted at [community profile] rainbowfic because it just worked out that way.

You're not as brave as you were at the start. )
balsamandash: ({ncis} the shop motto)
I'm gonna try and do more than one at a time, but for right now, I did a thing and I'm not sure I'll do more before sleep, so -- posting it is!

Day Three: Snowflake (from [personal profile] misbegotten)
(Prompt list)

now I believe the sun, it's like a symphony
No Child is Spared (original, sometimes better known as Cupcake-verse), Dave & Teddy, 592 words
Content warnings: Mentions of seasonal depression

So I had a shit week and am finally starting to find my feet, so I... write about someone recovering from a hard couple of months and finding a good morning. This was not a weird kind of catharsis at all. Also I hadn't written Dave and Teddy being happy in a while and I wanted to, so, yeah. Anyone unfamiliar with the verse, basically, a lot of people with shitty childhoods and backgrounds for various reasons end up eventually happy and orbiting a bakery. That's the nutshell, anyway.

Also the snowflakes in question are less the weather and more the rosettes, which my family has called snowflakes my entire life and I actually had to google "snowflake cookie fryer" to figure out the real name.


'Cause thus far you are the best thing that this life has yet to lose )
balsamandash: Abigail Hobbs (Hannibal) from nose to sternum, twisting her fingers together nervously (* twisting hands)
Day 03
In your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.


And I've been kind of meaning to think about goals all week, so uh. Let's see. Where to start.

Goals for 2017. )
balsamandash: (s] hope in the water)
Okay, so I had a really lousy couple of days, so I'm gonna try and dance back and do the dropped days of Snowflake and the January Meme later, but I am jumping right into this one first, because recs. I love doing recs so much.

Day 5
In your own space, post recs for at least three fanworks that you did not create. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.


The theme for the day is small fandoms, and I only got a little carried away. Six fic and three vids.

If you're ridiculous and you know it, click the cut.... )
balsamandash: (book] words in the heart)
Day 2
In your own space, share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life. Something that impacted on your consciousness in a way that left its mark on your soul.


This was a hard one for me, weirdly enough.

Rambling and multiple answers below. )
balsamandash: (dw] to withstand the world)
Day Two: Headlights (from [personal profile] thebonesofferalletters)
(Prompt list; I'm 7 shy of the full month.)

and if you come to find me, I'll color you red
MCU AU, Pepper Potts & Bucky Barnes, 727 words
Content warnings: Red Room issues (nothing explicit, but very much there)

... Uh. This one might take some explaining. So there's a story I've been wanting to write, which is... backtracked into a canon AU from a totally modern AU. Basically it started with the modern AU where Pepper, Natasha, and Bucky are adopted siblings, and then it turned into the AU where Pepper is a Black Widow and escaped the Red Room with Bucky's help. It's... a very intricate AU and I have a lot of backstory and scenes planned for it and I love it even if Bast is probably the only other person who will ever give a damn about it. This is maybe the first scene, definitely a scene, that I had in mind for it; if I ever get around to writing it probably it may or may not be in the fic at all, let alone in this form exactly, but... dammit, I did the thing. Considering how long I've wanted to get any of this out, I'll take it.

Take if you can, give if you must, ain't nobody but yourself to trust. )
balsamandash: (mcu] put on a show)
I'm so happy [community profile] snowflake_challenge is happening again this year, I gleed so hard. Going to see if I can finally manage to do every day to celebrate. It will be the January of ALL THE POSTING, everyone will be so tired of me. :D

Day 1
In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.


Self-recs! )
balsamandash: (mcu] can i worship at your shrine)
Day One: Endings (from [personal profile] bookblather)
((Prompt list; still need 7 prompts for the full month)

Whether or not it really ended up all that fitting for the prompt is debatable, but, uh, have New Years themed ficlet?

clouds on my agenda, and a spring in my feet
MCU, High School AU, Peggy Carter/Natasha Romanoff
479 words; brief mentions of death in the family, no other content warnings

'Cause I just wanna make her happy, no, I don't wanna lay no claim; if there's damage to be done, I am no good at taking blame. )
balsamandash: (news] when will you rise?)
I don't really have to say that 2016 wasn't a great year, do I? The world was a mess; physically and mentally, I've kind of been a mess in so many ways, and so many things fell by the wayside for longer than they should have. I wasn't very creative. I wasn't very good at keeping myself together.

But 2016 is also the year where I moved, the year where I left the job from hell, the year where a lot of things changed for the better. Last year felt like there was no growth whatsoever. This year was probably not as much growth as there could have been, or should have been, but on a purely personal level, I would not trade where I am now for where I was a year ago. I don't feel like I'm stuck, I don't feel like I'm balancing at the edge of a cliff, and I don't feel like I'm a terrifying free fall, either. I don't know how to describe where I am now, but it feels a lot more hopeful than I have in... a while.

This year, I'd love to say it's going to be full steam ahead and no holding myself back, but let's be honest - I'm not that person. Maybe I never will be. But I can try and let other people help me get out of my own way, and I can try and keep moving forward, even if I'm scared. I don't think I did too badly in 2016.

So here's to forward motion.

balsamandash: (mcu] put on a show)
I can't tell if this is late or early; I'm not seeing a lot of these go around. Maybe because it seems like nobody has money. I don't really have money either, but it's tradition, and dammit, I don't like breaking with tradition for no reason, so here I go. Traditional Disclaimer applies: I don't expect anything, especially anything that costs money, no obligations, I love you all, etc, etc.

Wishlist. )
balsamandash: Peggy Carter (Agent Carter) running in profile (mcu] a moving target's hard to hit)
As I've mentioned a few times, I'm beginning a career as a Tarot reader online. I'm pretty much knee-deep in the process now, and I'm working on setting up the website with all the details -- and making it look good, which is the part where I'm in need of some kind of help.

I need an artist. So I'm hoping that if anyone either thinks they'd be interested, or knows an artist who might, you might send an email my way.


12/7: Have gotten something worked out, thanks to anybody who took a look/shared the link.

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