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I am:
> August, but occasionally seen answering to older/other names
> 26; genderqueer (they/them or it/its); generally queer (asexual and panromantic)
> Living in Florida; on EST and an ever-rotating sleep schedule
> Poly, kinky, and in a long-term relationship
> A second-generation Witch doing some long-term religious soul searching
> Depressed, anxious, autistic, possibly OCD, generally suffering from massive executive dysfunction; dealing with chronic pain and other physical issues; fairly vocal about all of the above
> Making a go of self-employment (Tarot + freelance editing)
> A writer, an occasional beta, a highly inactive filker, learning to be a podficcer and a vidder, tentatively learning to draw/do digital art
> A massively multifannish thing
> Awful at commenting, slightly less awful at updating, usually reading
> Always open for being friended

AO3: [ profile] apatternedfever
Original Writing Notes: [community profile] temperedwithfable
Tumblr: [ profile] builttobalance
Twitter: [ profile] balsamandash

Transformative Works Policy )
balsamandash: (s] hope in the air)
Eternally open prompt post of doooooom! Spam away. Lyrics, quotes, scenarios, pictures, anything at all. Fannish, original, up for anything. My only request is gifs/vids being linked instead of embedded so my computer doesn't cry.
balsamandash: (* that's what's happening)
A year-long meme, started by [personal profile] novel_machinist and taken up by some other awesome people:

The goal isn't to write daily, it's to fill a request instead, when we have the time. There's no set length, the only things that we'll set are what we do and the types of Requests we want. The ONLY rule is that if someone fills your request you leave a comment to them. If you want in, make a Cabal of Creators Post on your journal with a link to it for all to see. Let's use the tag #CabalCreators2017 for easy finding.

I'm dividing my categories into two sections; "old faithful" and "new shiny". You might notice that a lot of them fall under the second header. There's a lot of creative things I'm trying to get into the habit of or learn this year, so while you are more than welcome to request something that's new for me, 1) simpler requests are appreciated, since I'll be learning my way around a lot of them; and 2) the quality will probably be shakier than in the first section.

Old Faithful
Fanfiction (fandoms)
Original Fiction (existing verse)
Original Fiction (general prompt)
Tarot (1-4 cards)

New Shinies
Audio recordings
Video recordings

Notes. )

Requests. )

Filled requests. )
balsamandash: (misc] to track me down)
I have a sudden, sharp desire to get back into regular spellwork, and I am just. not set up for that right now. Not mentally or physically; I have no tool, no altar setup, nothing physical to work with, and my space is just... not clean and orderly enough to get into even a lightly ritual-esque headspace in. And this is my own fault, I've been trying to fix it for months, but it's really upsetting me for no good reason right now.

Ugh. On an only semi-related note, though, my mother and I are going to be vending at the Pagan Unity Festival in May. I'm going to be doing in-person Tarot readings for part of the time, which... I am currently not touching my cards often at all, and I've been really doubtful of myself lately. So! Would anyone like a one-card draw as I try to get my head in the game?

(I may do this a couple more times in the lead-up to PUF, too.)

Only three decks on offer this time; if you have a preference, let me know, otherwise I'll pick at random:
* Tarot Draconis
* Omegaland
* Linestrider
balsamandash: text icon; quote from Her Story: "And all these stories we've been telling each other? Just that. Stories." (writing] all these stories)
Name a character I do some kind of creative work about, and I will tell you the five(ish) things I think are fundamental to understanding them.

(Fandom and original are both a go.) (Also for the record I am a little more than half through questions for the last meme/game-ish things I did, so I will get that up soon.)
balsamandash: Abigail Hobbs (Hannibal) from nose to sternum, twisting her fingers together nervously (han] bring me to my knees)
I realize I haven't updated in a while, so, I am alive and I am more or less fine. I am failing to get shit done at every turn so I have very little to say day-to-day, unless you want to hear me ramble about being slowly swallowed whole by Overwatch fandom and being annoyed at my own lack of productivity? Because honestly that's all that's really going on right now. That and a bit of RP.

The big brain-draining learn-all-the-shit project I was working on for my mother is done now, though, so I'm kind of hoping that makes it easier to make myself do the other stuff I need to do now that that's not hanging over me -- on the work level, on the apartment level, on the creative level. And speaking of brain-draining work stuff, mother is signed up to vend at PUF this year, which is both excellent - I REALLY wanted to go, and since I'm manning the table with her, I definitely get to - and terrifying - because she's pushing me to do readings at the table too and ahahah I have no confidence about doing professional readings in person whatsoever and I feel sick every time I think about it. We'll see how that goes.

Going to visit family for a least a couple of days in the middle of the month, because my brother and I are going to Brain Candy live, and it's a couple of days before St Pattys, which is a couple of days before grandmother's birthday, so I will probably end up there for at least one if not both. I would complain more, but corned beef and cabbage makes up for a lot of tension.

That's... basically it for the moment?
balsamandash: (book] words in the heart)
So as stated, this past weekend I was with my family, mostly so my mother and I could go do the Wicked lottery. Friday was kind of a busy mess, so we ended up skipping that and giving our first shot for the Saturday matinee. And won our first shot. Front-row seats.

It was awesome.

Picture + some rambling review/glee under the cut. )

So, that worked out, and then I got to run around a park hunting Pokemon with my brothers on Sunday. Then yesterday I got my best friend for my one-day-a-year. So that was good. The only thing that really marred the last few days was the fact that I was barely getting four hours a sleep a day, if that, from Thursday night until today.

But I've finally slept a decent amount, our power was out today but only for like an hour, and I need to get back on track with really doing work stuff. But probably tomorrow. Tonight I will make tacos and maybe continue to write for Lupercalia.
balsamandash: Peggy Carter (Agent Carter) running in profile (mcu] a moving target's hard to hit)
  • I am being picked up in about seven and a half hours to spend my weekend with my mother, going back and forth to the theater to try and Wicked tickets via lottery. Should be fun. We've got five shows this weekend, so hopefully one of them will work out. If not, we're hitting it again the third weekend, since they're doing it all month. Fingers crossed, because goddammit, I would like to finally see this show.
  • Then Monday we are seeing my best friend who lives in California and I am so happy, oh god. One day I will be rich and be able to see my best friend more than the once a year she comes to Florida. Right now I will just revel in that day every year as much as I can.
  • I am writing! Sort of! I wrote and I am hoping to write more. I have ~1600 words of Peggy Carter-centric fic for Lupercalia. It wants to become an epic ( my standards, which is like 10k, maybe 15k; I don't think I've ever written fic that long, though, so, eh), but I actually think I might be able to get it done by February 15th and I am kind of enjoying writing it a lot. This is really exciting for me and I'm hoping I can get some more done tonight. (...If anyone thinks this is the kind of thing they might be interested in beta-ing, poke me. Gonna post a proper looking-for-beta if I manage to get it done, but, yeah.)
  • Also, I got distracted for like an hour looking for character names, which is reason enough to link back, shh: Still taking questions for characters. Come help me world-and-character-build. I actually just about have names for everyone involved so I'll probably answer and post that up this weekend.
  • All in all, while I am not doing fantastic -- I've been sick, and brains have been very back and forth -- things are more or less okay, for the moment. Hopefully that holds out for a little while.
balsamandash: (s] time is fluid here)
Variation stolen from people who stole it from people who... you get the idea.

I've seen a lot of folks doing a January Meme. I'm shamelessly stealing the idea and adjusting. I'm asking for one- to three-word prompts. I'll do whatever first comes to mind with those words. It may be a graphic, it may be a poem or story, or even something about my life.

Dates. )
balsamandash: (mcu] my money's on you)
So for those of you unaware, I have a "writing babbles" filter.

I am going to repurpose into a general creativity lists-and-babbles-and-in-progress filter, because I have lists to make.

If you are on it and not interested, let me know and I'll take you off! If you're interested and aren't on it, let me know and I'll put you on!

(If you're trying to figure that out, here's some of the things in my head, if I don't drop the ball on the lists and things I'm thinking of right now: A list of fanfics on my to-write-list, a shortlist of podfics, a desire-to-vid list, notes on various original verses [and hopefully ongoing ones as I worldbuild and rework], possibly more indepth notes on some fanfic stuff, first passes at Lupercalia fic if I can get myself to write them this year.)
balsamandash: text icon; quote from Her Story: "And all these stories we've been telling each other? Just that. Stories." (writing] all these stories)
I still plan on going back and doing a bunch of old ones, but my recent desire to worldbuild, and specifically character-build, got brought up, and a thing coalesced, so. I'm gonna paste together and bastardize a couple of old memes in the service of character and world development.

Here's the game. I have a set of characters, numbered from 1 to 20. They come from 5 different original worlds and stories that I want to be working on this year. Some of them know each other; some, even from the same world, don't; some of them have been kicking around in my head about a decade, and some of them are sitting on that list with a three-word character description in the hopes I'll have named them by the time I'm done here.

You can:
  • Ask questions about what they're like/what they like. ("What's 4's favorite ice cream flavor", or, "What was 9's family like".)
  • Ask questions about their role in the story. ("What is 11's driving motivation".)
  • Ask more meta questions about what they're like. ("What House would 19 be in" or "What would 12 think of 8".)
  • Propose scenarios and I will describe how they'd go. ("1, 5, and 10 are on a roadtrip together; where are they going and how does it go?" or "16 has to pick someone else on the list to go on a date with; who do they choose?")
  • Ask any other question you can come up with.
  • Ask multiple questions about one character.
  • Ask questions about as many characters as you'd like.
  • Ask the same question about different characters.
  • Jump in on another thread and ask additional/tangential questions that occur based on what someone else has to ask.

At some point, when I have a fair few questions, I will either edit this post with the list and start answering questions in the comments, or put up a new one with the list and answers - it largely depends on how many questions I get. (And once that's done, you're free to toss in additional questions, either before looking at the list, or that come up in response to previous answers.)
balsamandash: Neal Caffrey (White Collar) raising his hand (wc] hands up)
So I am going back through my journal and tagging posts.

This is bringing a lot of old memes back into view.

If you get reaaaaaally old meme responses from me any time in the next month or two, I am very sorry and hoping you enjoy it.
balsamandash: (mcu] thumbs up seven up)
It's More Joy Day. I wanted to try and write or make something today, but I'm not sure that's happening, because it's a shit health day and I'm still weeks behind where I should be on all my lists.

However, you know what I can do at the drop of a hat? I can rec things. So come here, let's have a rec party.

Comment with something you'd like recs for. It doesn't even have to be fannish; it can be as general or as specific as you want. You can ask for fic, vids, icons, movies, tv shows, books, music, prompt lists -- whatever crosses your mind. I do not have an encyclopedic knowledge of all things, so if you ask for stuff I'm not as good with (where to buy stuff, podcasts, video games, recipes, specific fannish recommendations for fandoms I don't really inhabit) I may flounder a little, but feel free to try anyway.

If you want to toss in a please-avoid-or-warn-for, that's helpful. Feel free to ask for multiple things; in fact, if you're getting really specific, that's the best way to make sure I can help with something. And while I'm gonna try and shove things at everyone, if you see a request that you have a perfect rec for, go for it.


Jan. 18th, 2017 02:59 pm
balsamandash: (tbd] telling the story?)
I will attempting an actual update sometime in the next couple of days, especially because I mean to go rifle belatedly through friending memes, but for now, I am stealing memes.

Which fictional setting would you put me in, and what sort of role would I play there?

Or alternately:

Comment with a fanfic trope (and a character/pairing for it, if you want) and I will tell you:
• How likely I am to write it
• A few lines of a theoretical fic

(Fandom list, if you need it)
balsamandash: (mcu] if you're asking i can't say no)
I have a OneTab list of 61 fics I want to podfic, have acquired movies for a vid I want to make, and have the desire to go poke at the learn-to-draw site again.

I still am four things behind on the January Meme and I think four on Snowflake; I really, really need to work; and that's ignoring the part where cleaning and boxes should be done right now; but all I want to do is poke at new forms of creativity. It is a problem.

Less of a problem: The ever-amazing Bast got me a new Tarot deck as a late-arriving Christmas gift and I think I am going to take a poke at it today. It is so pretty, and so bright and, I don't know, clean compared to most of my decks, I am looking forward to breaking into it and hearing what it has to say. :)

Would anyone like a one-card draw? Not doing a whole formal write-up or asking for promotions, but I wouldn't mind getting a handle on it with some draws.
balsamandash: (book] reformed vampire)
(I am going to dance back and do day 7 today at some point, possibly in conjunction with the January meme, since the next prompt I have up I want to do fic for. But here goes.)

Day 8
In your own space, make a list of at least 3 things that you like about yourself. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I am far from the first person to say this, but I kind of hate this question. My self-esteem issues are epic and all-consuming and that's without getting into the part where my sense of self is kind of screwed up. But I am trying to get all the days done, so here goes nothing, I guess.

Iiiii stared at this for about ninety minutes and I still kind of copped out on the last one. )
balsamandash: (misc] to track me down)
Day Five: Time Stands Still (from [personal profile] silveradept)
(Prompt list.)

the feeling of being in motion again
Despite the Abundance, 866 words, five times time stopped for Nathan
Content notes: Non-graphic blood and violence; passing mentions of suicidal feelings; hinted at d/s relationship elements; one scene, while it's not terribly obvious if you don't know the verse and the characters, refers to a recovered addict getting tricked into using drugs.

This is another verse people who follow [personal profile] thebonesofferalletters' writing are more likely to be familiar with, especially if you follow rainbowfic. In a nutshell: Nathan is a contract killer, Timothy is an editor, they end up roommates, and then fall into a (poorly negotiated, but as healthy as it can be for that) sort-of-d/s relationship. It's maybe not the healthiest thing in the world, but it works for them, considering they're both pretty bad off in their own ways before they find each other.
Also posted at [community profile] rainbowfic.

I don't really wanna know what's good for me; God's dead, I said 'baby that's alright with me' )
balsamandash: (mcu] if i'm good will you let me come in)
Day 06
In your own space, create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive, something you've wanted but were afraid to ask for - a fannish wish-list of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your wish-list if you feel comfortable doing so. Maybe someone will grant a wish. Check out other people's posts. Maybe you will grant a wish. If any wishes are granted, we'd love it if you link them to this post.

Just a random hodgepodge of requests (betas, fic recs, graphics, worldbuilding, youtube recs) )
balsamandash: (ele] the cavalry with tea and sympathy)
Day Four: Nostalgia (from [personal profile] bethany_lauren)
(Prompt list.)

no place to call home anymore
This City's Got Grace (original); Bobby; 526 words
Content notes: Very roundabout mentions of the aftermath of torture, caregiver burnout (is I guess how I'm putting it), general unhappiness

So you're more likely to know this verse and this trio if you follow [personal profile] thebonesofferalletters's writing than mine, since I haven't really written them much, but in a nutshell: This City's Got Grace (or just Cityverse) is a giant urban fantasy kitchen sink universe of Bast's that they let me play in. Bobby is the angel of Brooklyn; his partners, Shaun and Hel, are also angels, who got kidnapped by these labs doing screwed-up experiments on various supernatural things and came back fucked up. The three of them deal with life and trying to get the two of them back to something at least sort of decent, in general; this is Bobby having a bad day of his own.'
Also posted at [community profile] rainbowfic because it just worked out that way.

You're not as brave as you were at the start. )
balsamandash: ({ncis} the shop motto)
I'm gonna try and do more than one at a time, but for right now, I did a thing and I'm not sure I'll do more before sleep, so -- posting it is!

Day Three: Snowflake (from [personal profile] misbegotten)
(Prompt list)

now I believe the sun, it's like a symphony
No Child is Spared (original, sometimes better known as Cupcake-verse), Dave & Teddy, 592 words
Content warnings: Mentions of seasonal depression

So I had a shit week and am finally starting to find my feet, so I... write about someone recovering from a hard couple of months and finding a good morning. This was not a weird kind of catharsis at all. Also I hadn't written Dave and Teddy being happy in a while and I wanted to, so, yeah. Anyone unfamiliar with the verse, basically, a lot of people with shitty childhoods and backgrounds for various reasons end up eventually happy and orbiting a bakery. That's the nutshell, anyway.

Also the snowflakes in question are less the weather and more the rosettes, which my family has called snowflakes my entire life and I actually had to google "snowflake cookie fryer" to figure out the real name.

'Cause thus far you are the best thing that this life has yet to lose )


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